nuclear battery

180 degrees

asad — Wed, 15 Apr 2009 13:44:42 +0000

I have learnt the hard way, that denial is in fact realisation in disguise. You can look at my face, and even through the layers of mist between us, I’m sadly disfigured when it comes to concealing expressions. A bad actor in the middle of someone else’s stage – and I give myself away. It is a good thing. Confrontation has already happened when you’ve tried to push it away. I’m always right there. Watch my every move and don’t let me fall, since I’ve made it obviously easy, and grassroots stem only from seeds.

Mocks are over and hell, revelling in every moment even though the spark seems gone.

Sometimes I wish I could walk on the ceiling to see the world from a whole new perspective.. every thing which doesn’t make sense immediately would, and everyone’s heads would be in their feet, quite literally.

asad — Sun, 12 Apr 2009 18:02:50 +0000

TheysayLife’sagamethentheytakethePawnAway.

asad — Sat, 11 Apr 2009 16:55:32 +0000

asad — Tue, 07 Apr 2009 19:23:09 +0000

Yay.

asad — Tue, 31 Mar 2009 17:17:04 +0000

If war didn’t exist we wouldn’t know what peace would be like.

If the large majority of senseless, stupid people didn’t exist we wouldn’t know appreciate the few with capability.

If Zardari didn’t exist we wouldn’t know what good government meant.

I started this blog with a post on revolution… it seems to be growing up around me, or maybe I’m only imagining it, or maybe it’s a phase. I don’t think we are politically ignorant or unconcerned today, I am talking about the youth. A substantial majorily is mentally rebelling, but the revolution of the mind is going to waste due to the lack of a directed purpose. I think it is the same issue faced in the past, the void which needs to be filled by a leader or the equivilant in the form of action.

Nightwish

asad — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 18:22:39 +0000

Everything clears up, even though it didn’t make sense two minutes ago.

You know what it takes …. we all do

Sundays

asad — Mon, 23 Mar 2009 18:21:57 +0000

He spins, spins, spins around in his chair. My world goes dizzy. It takes both hands to make it… everything.. stop, and my hands are already full, and finally he is facing me. Here we are, a last second plan back-t0-normal after an interval of coffee cups without sugar. The couch is comfortable enough, the air is even better, the place feels the same. I lounge about and stare at him. Fast forward, rewind, and back to square one.

He’s hunched back, eyes on the floor. “This fucks me up.” There’s a mannequin behind us and it’s standing feelingless. Word, thought, action. Action without word, thought without action. Why are you silent? “I just. I don’t know. You tell me.” Downcasted, there’s a reason why we keep coming back… it’s a reason I need and I hope it stays. But I’m the one who can’t deal, when you look down, I’m forced to look somewhere else, and start talking. The SLR is great. So was the juice. And fucked up isn’t always a bad thing. As long as the lights keep on rolling and we speak our mind when it’s not required. But looking down turns the tables around from where I’m sitting and suddenly I need to get up and I feel like I want to dance with you.

The car ride back isn’t silent. The night is perfect. Music plays and disconnects between sentences and we stare at an empty sky. I love filling it it up with laughter.

—

When I see her finally, she knows I am happy.
Swimming pools never felt as serene, it’s not sea-water, it’s artificial, but it offers the same reflection we stayed up all night observing – old jokes, breathing spaces.

I’m a soul soul soul man

asad — Mon, 23 Mar 2009 10:28:26 +0000

Black skies.. they make everything feel good.

On hold

asad — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 15:54:33 +0000

Every time I hear an incessant beeping sound, I remember thriller-action movies, think, bomb and start praying

Blow up, blow up, blow, blow, up, please..

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Without fail. That’s how it’s – how we roll.

eh..

asad — Sun, 15 Mar 2009 06:46:49 +0000

In everything that is life is the law written. You find it in the grass, in the tree, in the river, in the mountain, in the birds of heaven, in the fishes of the sea; But seek it chiefly in yourselves. For I tell you truly, all living things are nearer to God than the scriptures without life. God so made life and all living things that they might by the ever living word, teach the laws of the true God to man. God wrote not the laws in the pages of books, but in your heart and in your spirit.